Thursday, April 29, 2010

Just now, as I was sitting in my kitchen. I was eating my peanut buttered whole wheat bread after getting home, which is not a special occasion and happens at least daily…Something else happened, that was special, and probably doesn't happen daily. I had been contemplating relationships (not the special thing I'm referring to, this happens almost perpetually). Especially ones that are still relatively new. But faces are familiar and talk is, at the very least, translucent. I've learned so much from these different people. I mean that in the most literal way possible. One example being: I've reconstructed the way I ask certain questions because I've been shown a more unassuming, deliberate (yet still understand hopefully) way of doing it.

I realized though, that there's still so much ground to cover with some many things, not just relationships.

From an airplane you can see the shore line, it can touch you enough to cause you to do something. But you can't touch the sand and leave an indention. It's not going to get on every inch of your clothes from there.

God left me with a picture, because I've been contemplating how you have to discuss things down to the hair in the sink to really be in life changing relationship. You can't start with talking about the hair in the sink, and you can't stay there. But hopefully you get my picture.

The picture is this, my realization was that we have to smell peoples breath so that we aren't solely convinced by their words. That may not make sense to anyone else, and you probably wont sit and contemplate it at your kitchen counter for 15 minutes. I do hope that you understand and cherish the idea though. Every pearl is completed with a grain of sand (one that irritates, nonetheless). If you don't see the dirt and grime, you don't see completely. People chew gum, brush their teeth, bleach their teeth, carry breath mints with them everywhere. But it's not gone, our breath is still there.

I judge the drunkard because his breath is more poignant, because he doesn't cover up his dirt and grime. It doesn't matter if underneath it all my breath smells the same, at least I can cover it up with trident tropical twist. No his actions are not justifiable, but shouldn't I desire how much more quickly someone can touch his life? (this is an analogy so please don't rip open it's loop holes, I know it's not perfect).

In a community, our desire should be to gain the level of breath sharing. I know the Ultimate Tooth Brusher Teacher and we can seek Him best when people show us where the poppy seeds are stuck. I guess we should seek our teeth being as white as bleach, we just shouldn't seek it the same way the majority does.

It's not a thought I haven't thunk…

I hadn't been given this picture before though. Sometimes its easier, or more real, to seek things when you've been given a vivid picture. For me many times it is.


Tuesday, April 27, 2010



My life is complete.

Monday, April 26, 2010

I'm definitely glad it's not Tuesday
or Wednesday.
I'm oh so very glad it's not Thursday.
But it could be Friday...
All the same...I'm glad it's Monday.




p.s. have I told you yet that I have the best english teacher ever? Craziest, hardest, smartest one ever, but also the nicest most considerate one. [Example: I am doing this alternative research paper, different than the rest of the class did. Mine involves reading an almost 300 page novel. My rough draft was due today and it was more than rough (mostly probably because I had a second research paper due last week and didn't get to this until now). My second draft is due Wednesday and I asked, though I knew he had to grade this one, if he could send back comments on my second one. He said he'd just wait to send comments and grade until he got my second one.] And I am thankful for that.

Friday, April 23, 2010

An extra credit assignment started 23 hours before due. Never really finished...(which means don't judge)

p.s. go watch it on youtube, the quality is better.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Wednesday, April 21, 2010


on a side note: coffee, being sore and classical music are blessings. And reading out loud helps.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Everytime I listen to
[the intro/end of]
"Lifeline" by Angels & Airwaves
I want to watch reading rainbow.

Friday, April 16, 2010

Friday, a week ago, I bought some seeds in the dollar section at target (that place is the equivalent to candy land in reality). I planted a couple sunflowers in the little pot it came with. I knew I'd probably forget to water it regularly, but I think it should be okay if I remember every so often. Today I checked it and look! Already new life! One of the little guys had already shoved the shell off his back. I helped the others...
(that might be cheating, because I'm pretty sure they're racing...but I'd like more company rather than one winner, ya know?)




p.s.
funny story about when I bought the seeds:
I was getting a car looked at to see about buying it. So I was carless (left mine at the dealership, left the other at the shop) and walking. I bought 3 "seed starter kits" and 1 bag of wildflower seeds, I also bought organic fair trade coffee and a pack of 3 recycled "going green" journals. The cashier, I think, was a little scared. Unfortunately, my burlap grocery tote was in my car, so I had to use a new grocery bag...

Thursday, April 15, 2010



So far interesting week.
Realistically though, could we expect less?


Edit:
Reasons for an interesting week:
I. a. I broke my first lens (my first real lens to own, and my first lens to break)


b. Which lead my to taking it apart and eventually

c. discovering:
- Abelardo Morell


- Simon Lee (& along with him)
- Bus Obscura
[for some reason the link isn't working to embed, so we'll have to go with this]:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xUgLzSbIaUI&feature=related

To be continued?

Monday, April 12, 2010


Printed and put up photos!!! Finally...when I have a month and a half of living here left.
I also made a "yay for..." board to fill in
and a post-it note count down from 30-0.
Each day I have to turn that days number over
and write what was good about the day.
The 0 one has "reflect" written on the back.
So when I'm finished with finals, I wont just be
thinking about how I'm finished with finals.
I'll be able to grasp and be thankful for
the amazing Strength I know will be given
to me over the next 30 days.

Anyway. Back to english homework!