Lots and lots of thoughts.

But mostly.
The Living Word.

Sometimes when everyone is together, and we start watching soccer,
or a movie, I almost feel disappointed because I know I should invest in
the people I'm with now. And doing that is a way. But I can't get enough!
His Word is ALIVE.
There's this yearning. Part of which I've felt for a while.
But never like this.
Sometimes I got to bed and I can't sleep because
I'm excited about His work and His love.
Which is crazy, of course because I do need the physical
rest so that I can do His work and give His love.
But it's just awesome!
I've made a reading list as a goal to try and complete while I'm here.
Every time I see a reference to a book no on my list I want to add it though!
I know I sound nuts, but what could be more reasonable?
When you're in love with someone, you want to know everything about them
in relation to a human being, it doesn't really make that much
sense on surface level...
But with God, how could it not make more?
I feel like I've been a very uninvestive lover (it's a good word).
And for lack of a better word, I'm almost embarrassed by my
lack of depth in His love letter to me.
How have I had so much ignorance for it?
So now I am like a sponge dropped in a bucket of water,
or a kid who just won a candy store.
I can almost feel myself growing.

My one prayer request is just I would continue to be consumed.
I don't want this yearning to ever ever end.
I want to keep learning and being corrected in how to Love.

I will at some point share more stories and thoughts
and not just an explosion of excitement.
But it needed to be share. It needs to be share everywhere.
And I'm praying for everyone that this love and excitement
will be a reality in you're life.
That the warmth of contentment will be given to you.

Some thoughts:

The past couple of days have had rich times in the word! And I've been thinking a lot about hunger.
Since getting here, it's been a blessed thing.
The world labels hunger as a bad thing, as something to be fixed.
But in my recent experience it is not. In a completely materialistic way it's something that can lead to thanksgiving, you can be satisfied and instead of just waiting to be hungry again you can delight in being filled.
Hunger the last few days for me is something that has signified satisfaction.
When diving into the word I'm already satisfied, but I hunger and thirst for more.
even my physical hunger has now taken on a positive meaning. When feeling physically hungry
it reminds me that I feel nothing compared to how hungry for the Living Word I am.
I honestly wish everyone could view their physical hunger like this.
To have food is nice. Food is, like I mentioned earlier a great tool for thanksgiving and praise.
But it is no longer a tool of stability or security.
Food is blatantly not eternal. Bread goes bad in a week.
Produce as well.
But, thanksgiving.
Blessed.
Eternal response.

His word is living. Everything else is a means to deeper understanding.

Now? Packed. Tired. Peaceful. Expectant. In need of a cool breeze.
As planned, my next post will be from two countries over.
4 hours and 18 minutes to:
finish a book, take a nap, shower
and leave my house.

Not really ready for any of this on my own.
Good too no? Otherwise I might be tempted to do it that way.

I am not my own
for I have been made new
Please don't let me go
I desperately need You.


"God doesn't want to leave you where you are."

I might be just beginning,
I might be near the end.

home made, whole wheat, sugar free, spice waffles.
with fresh berries.
yum.

Validity. Release.

This is real. Pressure-less.


Complete. Whole. Content. Satisfied.
Imperfect.


Simple. Beyond comprehension. Vital. Liveable.

Irreversible. Unrestrainable.


Extravagant. Excessive. Complete.


[Cleansed.ToMakeThoroughlyClean.
Thoroughly.CompleteWithRegardToEveryDetail.]

Food is a pretty big deal in my life...I think mostly because of what surrounds and is equated with it.